I Think, Therefore …

So here I am, writing this blog over two years since my last entry.

Life has changed so much that I even forgot I had this site. I was checking out my old pc files and found the link. So I thought, “Why not write something?”.

And then it all came unstuck!

What do you write to a blog that has been dormant for so long?

So I’m just typing whatever comes into my head. Which, after all, is what I said this blog was going to be about so it seems!

Life has had its ups and down the last couple of years – new job, new man…. and of course the money to buy a new pc (hence forgetting all the stuff I had on this one – my ‘old faithful’).

Despite its ups and downs, life hasn’t been too bad I guess. Some people move out of your life and some move in. I guess it’s someone’s ‘great plan’, though whose I wouldn’t have a clue!

One thing I do miss is my little sister. She moved to another country just after I stopped writing here. We had our moments, but we were very close – shared most things that were happening to us (including a tendency to depression). I see her now and again (the last time at a pretty sad time), but I miss being able to saunter round to see her for a chat and putting the World to rights.

But my little sis has a blog (well, she has several, but this is her personal one). I found it the other day. She sort of told me about it – gave a few hints – but no address. It’s about Depression you see, and rather personal to her. But I found the blog at last and it opened on what I think is the latest entry – a post about cynicism and depression. Just reading it I knew it was her before even checking the name.

God, I can relate to that post! We were born into a cynical family and time proved that the only way to survive was to have a cynical attitude to life. Good old British humour so they say. Cynicism is irony by another name. And life is sure ironic at times!

Maybe I’ll post about it sometime soon.

For now, let’s just say that being a cynic works fine for me but if my little sis is having doubts about it, I can’t say I blame her. Having what she calls this ‘grey cloud’ to look through all the time does make life a bit, well, grey at times! Maybe we should both join the ‘happy crowd’ and tell ourselves umpteen times a day “I’m happy and joyous”, and all the rest of that garbage that certain people seem to believe in these days?

Nah, it wouldn’t work!

But I wish the best for my sis. I’ll go and ring her now and tell her I found her post. Embarass her, why not?

But that’s all my rambling for now. I might come back here another day now I’ve found this blog. Perhaps I’ll tart it up a bit. It does look a little drab.

All I’ve got to remember is to add the address to the bookmarks on my new pc, or else I’ll forget it again!