I Think, Therefore …

‘Blogging Angst’ May 27, 2006

When I began this blog I stated that this would be the place where I say what is really going on in my mind. But that has proved a problem when it comes to keeping this blog updated, as sometimes (quite a lot actually…) it is better not to express my thoughts; better to override them with opinions on culture, society, politics, you name it … or to post a funny picture or joke, or something … or just to meander through a post of trivialities.

It feels less exhausting that way.

But browsing the net I found many, many bloggers who seem to love expressing their innermost thoughts for all to see.

Their posts are full of fears and tears and angst, or "if only's", and even threats to "end their suffering".

I read these posts and sometimes I feel for them; I understand their fears, their sorrow at hopes dashed (or fears realised). But I also wonder about some of the writers. Are they really as depressed as they sound? Or are they just playing a game, looking for attention in the only way they feel able to do so?

I suppose I can feel sorry for writers like this. After all, to feel that you need attention so badly that you resort to lies or exaggerations is sad in itself.

But then there are the ones who post 'their angst' for a laugh. Perhaps most of these are just kids who need to develop a more sophisticated sense of humour?

I hope so anyway.

But those last two examples of 'blog-angst' leave me uncertain how much of myself to give away here.

I'm not a charlatan, neither am I an attention seeker.

I just need somewhere to write …

So I think I'll just bide my time and think about what I really want to write here.

I believe someone once said that "the truth sets us free".

Well, I'll think on that one …

A little longer ……